Anyway, I do believe that I learned a lot this past year, and I'm ready to put the bad things behind me and start over. It's always going to be there, but I do believe in people growing up in regards to a situation that they've experienced and the ability to try and get past it. I won't lie and say I'm completely over everything, but I do know I'm slowly getting over everything. However, I'm lucky in the regard that I'm still a teenager. I have a lot more in life to go through and I'm very thankful for it.
In regards to my e-friends, I'm seriously glad for all of you. I do wish more than anything to be able to meet you all once, but that's impossible. And I'm content in just the way things is. I'm a person who needs to be able to help others, it makes me feel useful, worthy. I'm glad when someone asks me for help and that I'm able to help them. I love you all, seriously. <33333333 You all totally made my experiences on the computer worthwhile. It really makes me happy that I've met all of you.
I've also gained many new interests and lost many as well. I'm not all that much into pretty boys nowadays and I've traded in movies for anime and manga once again. I've fangirled a lot of animated characters. Silva, L, Near, Tokugawa Kazuya, Tooyama Kintarou, Marco, Monkey D. Luffy, Byakuran, Mikk Tyki, the 14th, etc. There's a lot. Furthermore, I'm glad that I got into Hetalia. It makes history class a lot more fun when I'm imagining the characters. It makes me want to buy a world history text book, but I'll be happy with AP Euro in two years. I've also got back into some anime and manga like Prince of Tennis and Hunter X Hunter. I always tend to go back if they're interesting enough.
I'm still very emotional, perhaps more so than last year or maybe even less than last year. I think I'm somewhere in the middle. Hopefully I get things resolved soon. This year has been filled with ups and downs - what with me being pushed off to the side again, my parents nearly going through divorce, and not seeing my old friends, but also seeing my other old friends. It was actually harder than I thought transitioning to another school, I'm still having problems. But I do think this was a good decision for me, regardless. My grades have improved, dramatically, and I've gotten to be greedy with money as my dad's promising me a lot of money if I do good in school and get straight A's.
I hope that my 16th year of living is a good one. I'm ready to receive challenges and obstacles, but having rewards and a grand ol' time are also nice too. I have high hopes that I'll be able to change my life into a better one if I actually try and reach/work for it.
And that, my loves, concludes my reflection of my 15th year of birth. In addition, for the hell of it, I'm keeping this public.
There's a lot of stuff this past year that I wasn't or am proud of. It's been a long and tiring year for me, but I do believe that I'm growing up - at least I do know that my mentality isn't as childish anymore. Even my family realizes that I'm slowly growing into a young adult. I'm almost 16, a time where I can go out and drive if I want. But I'm a sucker, I don't want to drive and will hopefully find someone to drive me around or live in a neighborhood where I can walk because I'm not going to drive if I can help it.